Vishnuvardhan - A new journey into our lives

         I woke up moring to see my Mom and sis watching TV in low volume. I said myself what's interesting on TV so early coz their soap operas start only at night 8.00 PM. With interest, and with a sarcastic smile on face I turned to the TV. On TV I saw Vishnuvardhan's snap and below written was 1950-2009. Immediately a reporter started her work which she had left before. Sis said "this early moring" Suddenly I took my mobile which was lying besides me. The screen was blinking "11 messages received". Each SMS had only one message to convey!!!

       8.00 AM Dec 30 2009 was the time in my life I woke up to see a shock from by bed, for the first of its kind!!!

      This is how I came to know Vishnu passed away. For one hour I dint even move from my bed without taking my eyes from TV. For the first time I hated telivision, which make us sad without any notice, like what does the death. I am not a big fan or a follower of Vishnu. Its been years I watched his movie in theatre. Apthamitra was the last one. Infact my sis is a big fan of him. I was a big fan of Dr Raj, as I used to enjoy his movies since childhood. There are only couple ofVishnu's films which I remember to be impressed a lot. His first movie which I saw was "Bandhana". I dont remember how old I was when that movie was released. I was bribed by my sis and dad who gave Rs.200/- each in those days to come to movie with them. I went for money, this was the first movie which made me sad. I dint understand the story then. The only thing I told my friends next day at school was "there is song in which all coulur are put on a girl  and  Vishnu falls often while singing a song as if he was not well that day and he dies at the end". That's all I understood, and I forgot that money too.

     As I grew up I have read how he entered film industry, how he declared himself and entered with a big bang in the name of Ramachari and grow up as a big star. I saw that movie for the first time when I was almost 20yrs old!! I was impressed and wondered why nobody told me about this movie all these days.

    

     That's what has happened to him all these years. Irrespect of his work he has done in this film industry nobody spoke it, nobody appretiated. He was always looked like an outsider even till recently. Amlost everybody never showed him the love, he belonged!!! May be that's one among the reason why he choose to be too involved in spirituality.

     Around 6 yrs back I had a chance to go through his career path written in a weekly. His complete life journey from his acting in coleges, his love with north indian girl whom he still searched in the crowds of mumbai, his venture into cinema, everything was mentoned. The day he enthusiastically first met his screen idol  in between breaks who was also shooting in the same studio where he was donning the colours as Ramachari. His screen idol had already heard the positive vibes about a new guy from Mysore called Sampath Kumar who was acting in Putanna's new film. As Sampath went to him and introduced himself and said "I am Kumar from mysore, I am a big fan of your's". This star listens to this and turns away his face. Insecurity??? This stars people dint want this guy challege and take his place. This star's name haunted this Kumar for rest of his life, with or without the Star's awareness about it.  However Vishnu dint take that place, instead he created a distinct place for himself in the industry, in our lives. The day when I saw the same Star giving kiss to Vishnu on his cheeks oftenly on a stage during a cremony around 4 yrs back, I was happy to see them together, ambi was also with them. Like me all kannadigas saw it on screen. Again like me, somewhere in their mind they have felt the same happiness which I felt, because they too loved them both and wished to see them together.

                  This was the last time I saw these two stars "Shining", and enjoying each others presence.

        Indeed I was upset when Dr Rajkumar died. But I dint feel like he is no more. And whenever I saw him on screen I never felt sad. And I was his big fan and have seen most of his films. But this death of Vishnu was not tolerable somehow. They way ambi was crying on his close friend's death, it made tears roll out of my eyes. Till this day wherever I see his photos hoardings put up. Few words come out " you should not have gone so soon". I havent seen much of his movies of late. Nowadays I get to see them on weekends on all channels, where there are certain dialogues which are of his spiritual way of talking. After growing 30 yrs old now, tears rolled first time from my eyes seeing a scene of movie "mathad mathad mallige' where he resists to eat anything and one of his co-actor says "enadru tinno, ninna kalkoloke namgyarigu manasilla". Without my knowledge tears rolled out. (I dont even rememeber when I had last shed my tears).

       Apart from being an actor there was something in Vishnu, which attracted us towards him. Its called a charihma, persona, whatever............. Whenever I am seeing his hoardings lately I utter "ninu ishtu bega hogbardittu"!!!

       He was liked and loved by most of the  people, who themselves dint know about it and realised it only when he passed away, just like me!! This is ridiculous for me to realised that I am loving him more after his death. Everytime I watch him on screen now I watch him without blinking my eyes, with love. Without my knowledge he is impressing me day by day. This makes me feel both sad and happy.  This is what came to my mind now "Death  sometimes takes away everything and makes feel like life is empty and sometimes it shows what we really are within us and what it can be filled with". Why do we always love more those whom we loose?

     Vishnu I love you.

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RajuHiremath


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